i’m so glad i’m almost entirely over this. but talking tonight just made me feel more melancholy than i already was. i was hoping it would help us both, but i don’t think it did even slightly. nothing you said bothered me, just things i did. realizations i made about myself that i didn’t want to make. about my future self.
my thighs are now frozen.
home friday. thank god.
all the people that are close to me are just as gloomy as the sky has been for the past week. though today was a rather nice change, to be honest. warmer than usual. warm enough that it smelled a bit like spring. warm enough that i half expected to see a few robins. but regardless, everyone here is just so unhappy. i try my best to cheer people up, but it’s so hard when i’m not happy myself. i’ve watched so many friendships fall apart, relationships and trust disintegrate…it’s enough to make anyone at least a little depressed. and it most certainly doesn’t help that it’s finals week and everyone is freaking out and snapping at each other. it’s just sort of emotional chaos here. fort wayne will be so much more simple.
i just wish i could help everyone more.
ps. i’m on a ray charles and neil young kick.
and it’s thoroughly helping. now i’m going to go sit on a roof and think.
goodnight.
“she’s kathy griffin, only less interesting.”
I SHOULD. Have I met her before?
by sweetaction
it’s a likely possibility!
sorry.
just posted far too much.
